Decision time.....

Well, I think that I have made my decision. I am gonna get the Lap-Band. I can't just go on this way. I am tired of not fitting in restaraunt booths and regular seats. I have a special chair in my office that makes me ashamed every time I sit down. I call it the fat mans chair. After wearing out several regular chairs, they finally bought me this chair a few years ago. I am tired of hurting and my legs swelling badly. I could have measures an inch of swelling when I took my socks off tonight! Something's gotta give! And NOW!

Wishy-washy

Well, it's been a couple of weeks since I posted. I have went from ready to be banded to no, I'll try conventional WL programs but this time do better. This back & forth is killing me! I have to make my decision and stick with it. I have been praying a lot about it and it seems that God is not answering. That's hard for a youth pastor to say. It's probably that I am not listening close enough.
So, I have been on an eating binge...sort of. I have had ice cream the last 3 nights...a big no-no. Called yesterday about a personal trainer---WOW those are expensive! Can't do that, maybe I could find someone that would help me "train". I need to get to where I can walk without becoming winded. I hate athsma. I hate obesity. I don't hate myself though. I have a Savior that loves me and He wants me to minister to the hurting but it's hard to minister to the hurting when I am hurting myself. So all that said, last night and this morning I am becoming more sure of getting banded. About 95% sure....at least for now. Lord help me.