Well, it's been a couple of weeks since I posted. I have went from ready to be banded to no, I'll try conventional WL programs but this time do better. This back & forth is killing me! I have to make my decision and stick with it. I have been praying a lot about it and it seems that God is not answering. That's hard for a youth pastor to say. It's probably that I am not listening close enough.
So, I have been on an eating binge...sort of. I have had ice cream the last 3 nights...a big no-no. Called yesterday about a personal trainer---WOW those are expensive! Can't do that, maybe I could find someone that would help me "train". I need to get to where I can walk without becoming winded. I hate athsma. I hate obesity. I don't hate myself though. I have a Savior that loves me and He wants me to minister to the hurting but it's hard to minister to the hurting when I am hurting myself. So all that said, last night and this morning I am becoming more sure of getting banded. About 95% sure....at least for now. Lord help me.
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